This is the 1st full week on this new program. I kinda feel like I woke up from a very long sleep. Woke up groggy and wondering where the heck am I? I feel like I'm beginning to get my head straight. I opened my eyes just a little further and saw my house. I closed them shut again! But... opened them up reluctantly to see that I have lots of work to do to get the place in order. Its a beginning.
Things are still overwhelming, but I feel much better this past week. I have to rediscover the mental toughness that I had several years ago. It won't happen overnight, but I'm encouraged so far with the progress.
I laughed this weekend. Its a very common experience for most people, but not for me in a very long time. Most people laugh and feel better afterwards. That's why we laugh... to feel better and put aside problems for just a little bit. Yeah, I fake laugh a lot to keep up appearances but it isn't the feel better kind of laugh.
I laughed this weekend because of something my eldest did. She played a practical joke on me that a week before, I would have been very angry. She put a rubber band around the kitchen sink spritzer and made sure it was aimed well. So when I turned on the faucet, I got a blast of water in my face. Of course the entire kitchen was hosed down too before I stopped the water. It was a great joke executed very well! Seeing my eldest's face trying to hold back the mirth... waiting for my reaction to know if she needed to run to the next county... I laughed. And when I was done laughing, I gave her a big hug and some sponges to clean the mess up.
It felt good to laugh. I hope to do it more. Its a beginning.
Back to the program. I am learning lots and I'm losing weight! I have now lost 2 pounds already! My energy levels are very good. I don't feel run down anymore. I hope to start putting the rest of the items together this week so I can start to earn some money from this. More to follow when I know more if this will work or not.